Looking Over My Shoulder

Here are my personal highlights (in no particular order) as I reflect on what was '07:

• Sitting in the hot springs at Banff while the snow fell around us
• Retreat at Kananaskis
• Coffee with my buddy Andrew who was visiting from TO
• Superbowl party at Cody's place
• Receiving a copy of Furious Pursuit from Tim King himself
• Sledding with my kids
• Going on a personal retreat at Kingsfold
• The adult fellowship murder mystery
• Going to see 300 on the big screen with a few of the boys
• Joel's hockey tournament in Edmonton where they took it all on a goal by him
• Game 5 playoff hockey between the Flames & Wings, it went to double overtime - unfortunately the Flames lost
• Beginning a mentoring relationship with Kevin (he has been a huge help to me)
• Blue Elephant & Porn Sunday
• Golfing at Turner Valley with the guys
• Being front row center for Julia's ballet concert
• Jacob drumming at his recital as Berkley accompanied him on guitar with "Smells Like Teen Spirit"
• Camping at Salmon Arm, Shrek at the Drive In, picking cherries in the Okanogan, visiting my friend Sean at his cafe & the Dutchmen Dairy
• Spending the day with our good friends Jason & Sarah after not seeing them in 12 years and getting to meet their miracle baby, Abigail
• The Millarville market
• Camping at Lake Louise, visiting Moraine Lake, driving up through the mountains to walk on the glacier & visiting Jasper - all with Leslie's mom during her visit
• Camping in Kananaskis
• Camping with our church fam
• Peel & Sarah moved to Calgary
• Tattoo convention
• Rekindling a relationship with Bram & Anita
• Beginning a mentoring relationship with Keith (this guys has meant more to Leslie & I so far then he knows)
• Receiving the Volunteer of the Year award with Leslie for our work in Deer Run with DRCC
• Seeing the Flyers beat the Flames in the home opener with Joel at the Saddledome (I've never seen the Flyers play in all these years as a fan)
• 3rd annual Turkey Bowl
• Road trip to Edmonton w/Berkley to see In This Moment, Rob Zombie & the prince of darkness himself - OZZY
• Conference in Ottawa w/Leslie - getting to spend some time with Pernell, Mike & a few other good friends
• Seeing Sid the kid with Jacob at the dome vs. the Flames
• Meeting Bret Hart with my kids & getting his book autographed
• Spending time with the Bailey fam
• Going to see "The Sound of Music" with the fam
• Meeting & getting to know Ron & Toni
• Getting a cake from Phil & Amanda as a thank you for our 3 years at South Meadows
• Countless coffees, meals & conversations with friends on the journey

Fav movies of 2007 (no particular order):

• TMNT
• Transformers
• Pirates 3
• Shrek the Third
• The Bourne Ultimatum
• Simpsons Movie
• Spiderman 3
• 300
• Beowulf at the IMAX
• Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
• Gone Baby Gone
• The Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Ford

Fav music downloads of 2007 (no particular order):

• David Crowder Band - Remedy
• The Cult - Born into this
• In This Moment - Beautiful Tragedy
• Ozzy - Black Rain
• Billy Talent - 666
• Foo Fighters - Echoes, Silence, Patience & Grace
• K-OS - Atlantis: Hymns for Disco

Fav books read in 2007 (no particular order):

• Hitman
• The Present Future
• Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
• Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
• Furious Pursuit
• Spiritual Direction
• Divine Nobodies
• Exiles
• An Emergent Manifesto of Hope

Lowlight of 2007:

• The closing of our church. This was the hardest year for me personally in ministry. Sometimes misunderstood, misbelieved & working under the destructive tension of trying to live the way I believe while attempting to minister in an opposite way I don't buy into any longer.

God, it's been a good one! Here's to the next one...

Puritan New Year Prayer

Length of days does not profit me except the days are passed in thy presence, in thy service to thy glory.

Give me a grace that precedes, follows, guides, sustains, sanctifies, aids every hour, that I may not be one moment apart from thee, but may rely on thy Spirit to supply every thought, speak every word, direct every step, prosper every work, build up every mote of faith, and give me a desireto show forth thy praise, testify thy love, advance thy kingdom.

I launch my bark on the unknown waters of this year, with thee, O Father, as my harbor, (with) thee, O Son, at my helm, (with) thee, O Holy Spirit, filling my sails.

Guide me to heaven with my loins girt, my lamp burning, my ear open to thy calls, my heart full of love, my soul free.

Give me thy grace to sanctify me, thy comforts to cheer me, thy wisdom to teach, thy right hand to guide, thy counsel to instruct, thy law to judge, thy presence to stabilize.

May thy fear be my awe, thy triumphs my joy.

(From The Valley of Vision, p.112)

YOU DON'T HAVE TO GUESS WHAT GOD WANTS YOU TO DO

Many Christians stress out about making a decision because they wrongly believe they have to find God's one "right" answer to the problem. They spend countless hours struggling to determine God's "perfect will" for their lives--something God never told them to do.

"Perfect will"--the idea that God has a specific plan for us and that if we miss it, then we're living "Plan B"--is not a concept that's supported by Scripture. Our responsibility is to make sure we follow God's moral standards. Beyond that, we're free to choose the path for our life.

That's a difficult concept for many Christians to grasp. We want to believe that God must green-light all of our decisions--that he has a perfect will for each of us--one that we must find for ourselves. But is that really consistent with God's character and his interactions with us?

Throughout Scripture God presents himself using the analogy of a good father. Even if you don't have the best biological dad in the world, you know what a good father should be like.

I feel blessed because I do have a great father. My dad is an architect by trade, and his personality suits his chosen career. He's a very orderly, structured, and intentional person. If he weren't, then it would be hard for him to get anything built. (And if he weren't meticulous, then the buildings he designed would most likely fall down.) I see my dad as a significant creator who possesses many of God's attributes of orderliness, purpose, and imagination.

Yet as good a father as he is, my dad doesn't expect me to depend on him to make every decision for me. Can you imagine what my life might be like if he did?

"Hi, Dad, it's me. My friends want to go to lunch. Should I go with them?"
"Yes, son, you should."
"Where should we go?"
"You should go to Wendy's."
"What should I order?"
"You should order a Spicy Chicken Sandwich meal."
"Should I biggie-size it?"
"No, son, you must not biggie-size it."

I think you get the idea. It would be ridiculous to expect my father to have a firm opinion on all of those decisions. My father taught me how to tell right from wrong and how to make good choices. Therefore, I'm free to make decisions within those parameters without getting into trouble.

God, the best Dad we could ever hope for, has done the same thing for us. He's given us the boundaries of his moral standards and the freedom to make our own decisions within those boundaries.

**
Taken from "Wisdom On... Making Good Decisions" by Mark Matlock, copyright 2008, Zondervan/Youth Specialties. Used by permission. Release date January 2008.

Closure

Our church had its last formal gathering today. It was a tough and emotional one.

This was our third church. We've moved on twice before leaving the church to the leadership of those who would succeed us. This however was different. It was much harder having the last word & searching for that last word to conclude with.

I hope the time we spent together this morning helped bring us a little further in the direction of closure. Of course I'm sure we will each wake up next Sunday feeling a little empty & displaced as it hits us that our corporate gathering no longer exists as it once did.

I have confidence that God is as much in this now as He was when He opened the door for us to come here three years ago. I have confidence that God has a plan now as He has been working it through the past few years. There have been times in the past 5 years where I had almost rushed God's timing; where with my impatience I was trying to push His hand. Looking back I realize how different things would have turned out if I had gone on emotion & my own personal steam instead of trusting God, even though I didn't know what He was up to.

I still don't fully know what's happening tomorrow. I can feel self doubt creeping in there. I'm looking for logical answers. Despite how I feel - at my core I am confident that God is doing something & right now I'm where I should be.

Love, gratitude & prayers go out to those who have journeyed with us these past three years as part of South Meadows. For some we were your pastors, for others you've gone beyond that to embrace us as friends. Thank you all.

‘May the Lord bless you
and protect you.
May the Lord smile on you
and be gracious to you.
May the Lord show you his favor
and give you his peace.’
(Numbers 6:24-26 NLT)

Things

I got a new game for Christmas & it is hands down the best game I've come across in a dang long time - Things! The game is a blast. We had seven of us playing it and I think the more people the better.

Here's the write up:

Want a Good Laugh?Well it's as simple as opening the box and playing THINGS...™ the hilarious new game that presents players with provocative topics, like:

• THINGS...™ people do when no one is looking.
• THINGS...™ your parents forgot to tell you.
• THINGS...™ you can never find.
• THINGS...™ dogs are actually saying when they bark.
• THINGS...™ you shouldn't tie to the roof of your car.

...and allows each player to say whatever comes to mind. Pick a topic, get everyone to write a response, read them out loud and then guess who said what. There are no right answers. There are no wrong answers. Just a lot of fun.

You won't believe the THINGS...™ you'll hear.

Merry Christmas!

From my blog to yours!

The Chimes are Changing?

More realistically, the times have changed!

Listen closely. The sound you may not be hearing this holiday season as you stumble from mall to mall is the tinkle of silver bells.

Of course if you live in a big city like Toronto, you may not be able to hear much of anything over the din of harried holiday shoppers and the incessant sound of cellphones with their Babel-like ringtones.

But listen some more. It's a subtle thing. Where is the chingle, chingle, chingle of the Salvation Army bells?

The Sally Ann bell-ringers themselves are there — in most of the big malls and by the subway stations and liquor stores — with their distinctive red kettles.

But check out their hands (it can be easier, sometimes, than looking them in the eye). Most have no bells. No little leather belts of jingling chimes to draw attention to their existence.

Finish the article here.

For the record, I hate the annoying sound of those bells and have NEVER rung them while volunteering on a kettle!

Be Kind Rewind

Traditions

One of the many things I love about our family is our purposeful time spent together. Leslie & I have created or adopted traditions for our family that happen at various times & seasons throughout the year. One of those traditions we came by unintentionally our first Christmas season in Calgary when we were given theatre tickets to see "Treasure Island".

Last year we decided we'd take our kids to see a production of "A Christmas Carol".

Today we once again took our kids to the theatre. This time it was to the Storybook Theatre production of "The Sound of Music". We had never been to Storybook Theatre but I must say it was quite good. We all enjoyed ourselves. As a youth, year after year avoiding my older sisters invites to annually watch "The Sound of Music" when it came on TV - today I delightfully sat through it!

P.O.D. Christmas Greeting

Who could ask for anything more!?

I was waiting in the Doctor's office last week and I was flipping through a magazine. I came across a VISA ad that listed probably 25 things the man pictured in the ad wanted to do before he died - bungee jump, ski in BC, etc. etc. I began thinking to myself - what would I like to do? I couldn't think of anything. I have no list.

I began to wonder - am I boring or dreamless? Why no list?

As I thought on this some more I realized there is truly nothing I want - not because I'm boring or dreamless but because I'm satisfied. I've been to Europe, Bahamas & South America; I've lived in Bermuda; I've lived both inland & on the coast; I've lived in some of the greatest cities & towns in Canada (the rest I've visited); I've been to the greatest city on Earth - NYC & that at the greatest time of the year, Christmas; I've cruised to Mexico; I've attended hockey games at some of the greatest arenas in the game - The Forum & Bell Centre, Maple Leaf Gardens & the ACC, MSG, Mellon Arena, the Saddledome; I've seen Gretzky, Lemieux & Crosby play live; I've met Ron Hextall, Patrick Roy, Joe Sakic, Steve Shutt to name a few; I've seen P.O.D. 3 times, Ozzy, Bon Jovi, Linkin Park, even ZZ Top; I've vacationed with my wife & kids in some of Canada's most picturesque National Parks - Algonquin, Banff, Kootenay, Gros Morne - & the memories we've made in the mountains & on lakes either out in our tent or tent trailer, priceless - SERIOUSLY, the list of blessings goes on & on!

I've been, done, met & experienced everything I've wanted to.

I have the greatest family in my wife & 3 kids and I've got friends in all of the 12 places I've lived to date - with a few close friends to boot.

I really can't think of anything else I'd like to do - God, don't take that as I'm ready to go coz' I ain't yet!

12 Days (like you've not heard it before)

Holiday Outflow Ideas

Random Acts of Kindness - good year-round!

Micro Phonies

This is hands down my favorite Stooges skit. My brother & I mocked this one for years - still do!

Bret Hart

My boys have become huge wrestling fans. Today I waited in line 2 hours (they joined me after an hour & 45), snuck a Christmas gift from the house & had Bret Hart sign it!

Bret Hart is the real deal. A true Canadian & local icon. He (and the Hart Foundation) were a favourite growing up.

The Excellence of Execution - the best there is, the best there was & the best there ever will be!

Here I'm asking him if he wants to go. He says - don't have me come across this table. Seriously, I'm not that dumb - he'd easily slap the sharpshooter on me.

btw - started reading the book while in line - I definitely recommend it, the Hitman is a great story teller

Happy Bday Leslie!

My lovely lady continues to get more beautiful each year!
Hope you have a great day!

What Would Jesus Buy?

Who Will Save Christmas?

Advent Conspiracy

spend less - give more - love all

Christ tends to get overlooked at Christmas. Let’s be honest. December comes and you think, “OK, this is the year.” This time you’ll swear you’ll slow down and take it all in. Make the most with family. Help the needy. Zero in on what it really means to be a Christ follower during this holy season.

What if you could inspire your church, your family and yourself to avoid being consumed by commercialism this Christmas?

ADVENT CONSPIRACY

Happy Bday Jake!

My buddy hits the double digits today.

Do They Know it's Christmas?

A Homemade Christmas

Check out familyfun for some inexpensive Christmas gift ideas.

The Wisdom of Dr. Seuss

"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened."

Flames, Penguins & Hitmen

Jake & I were blessed enough to snag tickets to the much coveted Flames/Penguins game this week. Friends of ours won game day tickets too - we had a blast together! Here's a pic of Harvey the Hound catching site of Jake decked out in his Pens hat & Crosby jersey. We were in the first row of this section. Harvey grabbed the railing, stood over Jake & put Jacob's head into his mouth.

Here's the opening face off. The game went to a shoot out - Pittsburgh won 3-2. Jake was thrilled. Although Crosby was held off the scoresheet he was quite something to watch. He has great hockey sense, very smooth & strong on his skates.

The warm up!

The whole fam attended the Hitmen game last Sunday with Joel's hockey team. The game featured the annual teddy bear toss. Fans bring teddy bears to the game to toss on the ice after the Hitmen score their first goal.

The Hitmen scored within the first five minutes of the opening period - the rain of teddy bears began and continued for 1/2 an hour!

When the bears were all collected they totalled 26,919 (a new record) which the Hitmen distributed to local charities & hospitals.

Ron Hextall the Great

Twenty years ago today Hexy became the first goalie to shoot the puck down the length of the ice & into an empty net!

You can read more in this article or view it here.

Bend it like Beckham

Had dinner with friends last night who lent me Bend it like Beckham & said I had to watch it.

I wasn't interested in watching in before this but I must admit, now having seen it, it's a good flic.

It reminded me of My Big Fat Greek Wedding (from the perspective of appreciating our diversity across cultures).

There is so much we can learn from one another if we'd only take the time to listen lovingly & respectfully to each other.

The Middle

Heard Jimmy Eat World on the radio today. What a great song!

Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.

True dat! True dat!

Doing December Differently

Here is a free downloadable sample of the book which includes this fresh take on some old words:

Genealogy by Nicola Slee

Matthew 1:1–17

He came from a dysfunctional family.

And I’m not just talking about his mum and dad

(thepregnancy out of wedlock,

the pronounced age difference)

No, it went back much further than that.

There were more than a few skeletons in his cupboard.

Take great King David,

the one they all wrote and sang about, eulogised in the histories,

the family’s pride and joy.

He wasn’t all he was cracked up to be, believe you me.

He might have been Jesse’s golden-haired youngest,

but later, he was conniving and horny,

spying on his officer’s comely wife from the palace balcony

and taking her for his own,

sending soldiers to do away with unsuspecting Uriah

returning victorious from battle. Some victory!

Prostitutes and foreigners aplenty scatter the litter:

women you’d not want your daughters taking after,

even if you can’t help admiring that plucky Rahab.

Some came to a very sorry end.

That poor Tamar! It makes me shudder to even think of her.

Don’t let your children read her story,

it’ll keep them awake for nights on end.

Best not to ask about the ones

whose names have sunk into obscurity,

for fear of what you might uncover:

what unimaginable sleights of hand, sexual perversions,

brutal slayings or tortures.

Who now thinks of Nashon or Asa,

Uzziah, Joham or Jeconiah,

Matthan, Azar or Eliud?

Don’t disturb their memories with your inquisitive fingers.

Keep going back and you end up at Abraham,

another one no better than he ought to be and a whole heap worse.

Right bastard, if you’ll pardon my English.

Played off his wife as his sister, he did,

had it away with his slave girl to get himself a son

and then didn’t lift a finger in her defence

when Sarah sent her packing into the desert

in a fit of jealousy and rage.

Worse of all, he was ready to kill his own precious Isaac

on some highfalutin whim of the Almighty.

That story has been causing trouble for generations

down the family line,

still keeps the menfolk and their offspring fighting.

No, not what you’d call a promising pedigree.

Not surprising he didn’t turn out a happy family man.

Little wonder he stayed single.

Sally Ann sees what most don't

The Salvation Army sees the heartbreaking effects of poverty, homelessness, abuse and addiction every day. And most importantly, they see the people who desperately need support and compassion. It's impossible for The Salvation Army to turn a blind eye to suffering. Last year in Canada The Salvation Army served 2.5 million meals to the hungry, helped 10,000 people with addictions and provided one third of all shelter beds each night. This Christmas why not open your eyes and your heart. And give.

Redeeming Christmas Decorations

I love Christmas! I love the symbolism, the traditions, the family & friendly gatherings, the food, the music, the spirit, the extra concern for the poor - need I go on!

Many people say, "Christmas is becoming too commercial... too many decorations." In some ways I agree with this statement. But when it comes to decorating I like what Jack Hayford says in Come & Behold Him. One of the chapters is entitled "We'll Dress the House." In it he gives three suggestions when decorating:

1. Be assured, this is righteous - Decoration of the house at Christmas is neither a surrender to pagan traditions nor a capitulation to commercialism.

• if God commissioned angels to roll back the night and fill it with blazing light,
• if God provided a mighty celestial choir to serenade a few startled shepherds,
  
• if God graced the heavens with a miracle star,
• if God arranged such a memorable entry point as a feeding trough in a stable,
• if God went to all this trouble to open our eyes to His entry into our world, then we needn't apologize for festooning our home with a few seasonal reminders!

Since the Light of the World has come, lights strung across the roof only "shout it from the housetop". Candles and candelabra, stars and starlight, gifts and giving, songs and sonnets, lights and light-heartedness, angel cookies and wisemen ornaments - all are consistent with what transpired on our little planet two thousand years ago.

2. Since it is right, sanctify it - Present your decorating and decorations to the Lord as a tribute to Him.

• Pray before you decorate.
• Worship as you decorate.
• Give thanks after you decorate.
• As Paul writes it, "Do everything heartily and freely to God's glory."

3. Invite others to share it with you - When you "dress up", you usually "go out". But since our homes are fixed locations, the only alternative is to invite others in. It is a witness to our neighbours when they see a believer actually happy about life! So many in the world think us uptight and sour - incapable of genuine gladness. But when these neighbours and relatives encounter a home filled with true happiness, a light-hearted spirit of fun, and a warm, generous welcome, it can be utterly disarming. It paints a whole new portrait of the "Jesus life."

**Adapted from a long ago edition of "The Calling" & originally written by Sue-Ann Hicks

Dino Town

I headed out of town today to help my buddy prepare for some of the Christmas rush that is a big part of Salvation Army Xmas ministry.

For lunch he took me to Bernie's for the hamburger experience of a lifetime - it was awesome!

I can't imagine scoffin' down the mammoth burger - enough to feed a family & costing $20!

The record time is 13 mins & 52 seconds!

The Road To Life

I came across this site after seeing a billboard on my drive this morning:

Allow us to direct you to a place offering an unmatched work life balance. A place where you will feel at home, safe and secure. A place filled with opportunities. This place is Nova Scotia. Nova Scotia Come to life launched an ad campaign this week in Toronto and Calgary to help point expatriate Nova Scotians in the RIGHT direction. We want to remind expatriate Nova Scotians about their home and what they left behind: the ocean, family and friends, a less hectic life and yes - donairs.

That last line got me - and yes, even donairs!

Do you ever look at life and wonder where it went and what you have to show for it? I do.

Coming soon...

Minimalize

Been doing a lot of thinking around simple church. There is a book of the same title but I don't own it & haven't read it (maybe someday).

Ironically the concept of simple church really goes against the institutionalized church culture we've come to embrace - even to the point of being willing to fight to the death for it. Ironic because in the beginning...it was so simple, it was real & it was invaluable. Why wouldn't we want to get back to that?

At times last week while listening at Imagine, there were sometimes contradictory messages between Church Growth & Kingdom Growth, depending on which session & who the speaker was.

We've been seduced by the church growth movement to think that the church is the end instead of the true end being Kingdom growth. We measure success by attraction instead of the biblical measurement of giving ourselves away (true evangelism Jesus style).

I like what I heard one speaker say: Every person given the opportunity to experience the good news through a trust relationship.

I like that because it makes Jesus' life about everybody & not just the church. Who knew!?! Also, because it's about relationship, process, time, and going out.

That missional statement reminded me of when I heard Brian Mclaren state the mission of his church: To be and make disciples in authentic community for the good of the world.

I like that because it gives validation, perspective & a good kick in the pants for what the church does "in here" is for the greater purpose of what's happening "out there".

Every flavour of church (even the trendy emergent versions) are being pushed to re-evalute the "why" questions of mission.

I believe a missional move forward will see the return to a time of:

• minimal reliance on buildings
• minimal reliance on programs
• minimal reliance on staff

The above big three have become huge contributors to the church we know & have come to affectionately embrace. What could a church minimalizing the emphasis on these three look like?

Simple Message

Got this simple message smokin' me between the eyes recently:

OBEDIENCE - obey God & leave the consequences to Him
CALLING - where God calls - He equips
PROMISES - there will be bumps & challenges along the way, embrace God's promises

i.e. Matthew 16:18 NLT "upon this rock I will build my church, and all the powers of hell will not conquer it."

..and... ..

Hebrews 13:8 NLT "Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever."

Anger Burns

Been looking at the book of James, in particular chapter 4.

Verse one asks the questions: What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don't they come from your desires that battle within you?

What happens on the outside is a picture of something deeper that's happening on the inside.

We so easily get offended & upset over the trivial. If we could only learn to get angry over the true injustices of the world as God does..

...few of us do. Round and round we go taking shots at each other with our venomous words that attempt to assassinate character.

"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned." ~Buddha

60th

My 60th post is my first in a long time.

I've so much to say & these are interesting days for me & mine.

I've just gotten back from a week away at a conference.

I'll hook you up when the weekend is through!

Beyond Doing Church Better

The church stands at a booth in front of a river. At the booth they attempt to sell bottled water to people who pass them by and jump in the river. The church scratches it's head and wonders, "How can we get this bottled water into the hands of the people? Should we change the label? What catchy phrase can we place on the label to make it more appealing? We need a gripping brand..." Meanwhile, it matters not how they change & dress up the product. The bottom line remains, people aren't interested in what they are packaging. Word to the church: LEAVE THE BLOODY BOOTH & JUMP IN THE RIVER WHERE THE PEOPLE ARE!!!!!!!

See "The Present Future" by Reggie McNeal.

McNeal says there is a wrong question the church is stuck on trying to answer and a tough question the church isn't attempting to answer but must.

WRONG QUESTION: How do we do church better?
TOUGH QUESTION: How do we deconvert from Churchianity to Christianity?

An easy, practical read worth looking into.

What is a Friend?

I was looking back through an old journal of mine to discover that my oldest son lost his first tooth three years ago yesterday. I also came across a quote I had given to my best friend:

What is a friend? I will tell you. It is a person with whom you dare to be yourself. Your soul can be naked with him. He seems to ask of you to put on nothing, only to be what you are. He does not want you to be better or worse. When you are with him, you feel as a prisoner feels who has been declared innocent. You do not have to be on your guard. You can say what you think, so long as it is genuinely you. He understands those contradictions in your nature that lead others to misjudge you. With him you breathe freely. You can avow your little vanities and envies and hates and vicious sparks, your meannesses and absurdities and, in opening them up to him, they are lost, dissolved on the white ocean of his loyality. He understands. You do not have to be careful. You can abuse him, neglect him, tolerate him. Best of all, you can keep still with him. It makes no matter. He likes you. He is like fire that purges to the bone. He understands. You can weep with him, sin with him, laugh with him, pray with him. Through it all - and underneath - he sees, knows and loves you.A friend? What is a friend?Just one, I repeat, with whom you dare to be yourself.

~C. Raymond Beran, in Bits and Pieces, September 19, 1991, pp 3-4.

Silence

"We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature - trees, flowers, grass- grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence... We need silence to be able to touch souls." ~Mother Teresa

The word listen contains the same letters as the word silent.

Appetites

I recently finished this great book by Steve Arterburn. It's an easy and quick read.

In it he talks about the 8 God given appetites we embody:

1. The Appetite for Food (Genesis 1:29)
2. The Appetite for Sex (Genesis 1:28)
3. The Appetite for Authority & Power (Genesis 1:26)
4. The Appetite for Pleasure (Genesis 2:9)
5. The Appetite for Work (Genesis 2:15)
6. The Appetite for Companionship (Genesis 2:18)
7. The Appetite for Fellowship with God (Genesis 1:29-30; 2:15-25)
8. The Appetite for Gaining Wisdom (Genesis 3:6)

As you can see, Arterburn points out that we've had these from the beginning.

He says, "Our appetites motivate us to seek fulfillment, but they must be managed or they will lead us into a world of regret and tremendous emotional pain. When an appetite intended to help us survive is managed incorrectly, it may become a deadly trap. Until we give ourselves and our appetites completely over to God, we remain trapped."

Satisfaction & Obedience

"The question of how to satisfy our appetites becomes instead a call to seek to obey God in all circumstances and through all appetites and desires. That means making the necessary choices to satisfy our appetites in a manner that honors Him. When we do, true fulfillment is our reward."

I give this book two salad tongs up!

What We've Done

In this farewell
There’s no blood
There’s no Alibi
‘Cause I’ve Drawn Regret
For the Truth
Of a Thousand Lies

[Pre-Chorus]
So let Mercy Come
And Wash Away
What I’ve Done

[Chorus]
I’ve Faced myself
To Cross out what I’ve Become
Erase Myself
And let Go of What I’ve done

Put to rest
What you Thought of Me
Well I Cleaned this Slate
With the Hands of Uncertainty

[Chorus]
For What I’ve Done
I’ll start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I’m Forgiving What I’ve Done!!!

~Linkin Park

To start over...to have a clean slate - priceless!? Paid in blood, Jesus' blood.

Who of us isn't responsible for crimes committed against God's earth, our society & each other?

The first step to starting over is seeking forgiveness & mercy from the God of creation & each other for what we've done.

God let your mercy fall...

Prove it!

I had the great privilege of speaking at the Retired Officers Retreat this morning & then to sit down and chat with several retired pastors in my denomination.

Quite often in circles such as these I am known as my father & mother's son. I was quite surprised by how many faces I recognized (not to mention a little unnerved to see my training principal of ten years ago sitting in the front row!).

At lunch one gentleman was recollecting how his mother had died when he was five years old and his sister 6 months old. His father, being a pastor in TSA was told that there was an appointment waiting for him in another province but he couldn't take his children. For two years, these two grieving young children & their grief stricken father lived separately. WOW! Now a retired officer himself, he said, "That just wouldn't be tolerated today!" True, but what a sacrifice.

Another conversation began between myself and a woman who is now 76 years old and has been retired for 11 years. She told me that they ministered in the days when you were not guaranteed a salary & sometimes went weeks without receiving one (and there was no retroactive pay). She said, "We never wanted for anything and we always had what we needed." She said, "We proved our faith & God's faithfulness by having food on the table for our kids when we had no money. We had to put two new sets of shocks in our car from having the camp kids ride around in it when we were youth leaders. We paid for that ourselves from nothing." Sacrifice.

She then looked me in the eye and sincerely asked, "How does your generation of officers prove your faith & God's faithfulness? I'm sure there are stresses, just different stresses."

She stumped me.

Sure, as officers we sign a paper that we aren't guaranteed a salary (and it isn't supposed to even be called a salary rather an allowance). But the reality is, in ten years I haven't had to miss one. I have it very good. Are there stresses - yes! But how are my kids seeing the proof of my faith & God's faithfulness by how I live? What does the sacrifice look like for me?

Big Studly Tuna

Read the interview with Phil Vischer (Veggie Tales creator) here.

For now, I'll spoil the ending for you:

What advice do you have for pastors trapped in a false gospel of impact?

First, there is a danger in applying business principles to ministry. Businesses use numbers to measure success and ministries shouldn't. Using numbers to convince ourselves that we are doing God's will is dangerous. Second, remember that nothing is scripture except Scripture. We shouldn't look at a model another church is using and simply adopt it. Because God has uniquely led someone doesn't mean he is leading you into the same thing.

How are you employing these new ideas in your ministry now?

My new company is called Jellyfish Labs because jellyfish cannot choose their own course; their direction is derived from currents. As a Christian I should be thinking of myself more as a jellyfish than as a big studly tuna. I have a wall full of new ideas. But the moment I pick one and call it my dream—my big, hairy, audacious goal—I'm holding onto it too tightly. And that's a big change. God is now my dream, my deep desire, not what I can do for him.

Quote-UnQuote

"When the story of these times gets written, we want it to say that we did all we could, and it was more than anyone could have imagined."- Bono

"Do all the good you can, by all the means you can, in all the ways you can, in all the places you can, at all the times you can, to all the people you can, as long as you ever can."- John Wesley

GIT-R-DONE!!

Then I heard the voice of the LORD saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" And I said, "Here am I. Send me!" (Isaiah 6:8)

Here's a situation that may seem familiar to you: In class or bible study, your teacher/pastor asks a question about something you aren't quite sure about. The teacher/pastor starts looking around the room for someone to answer it. You slink down in your seat, trying to make yourself invisible--praying that you won't be picked. Ever had an experience like that?

Unfortunately, many believers react the same way when it comes time to serve God. When they see a need or a service opportunity, they do everything they can to make themselves invisible, hoping that God will pick someone else to get involved.

And that's a mistake.

You see, Christian service isn't just about helping others. It's about pleasing God and drawing closer to him. The best way to strengthen your bond with your heavenly Father is through obedient acts of service. If you decline the opportunities he gives you to serve him, you're the one who will lose in the long run.

Will you be that person? Will you step up to the plate like Isaiah did and say, "Here am I--send me"? Don't let excuses like busyness or inexperience stand in your way. Few people have enough free time to get involved in service projects. People who are serious about service make time. And most people who volunteer for service work have no idea what they're doing. However, they learn very quickly that when God calls someone, he also equips that person. He will not let a small matter such as lack of experience stand in the way of his work being done.

So what are you waiting for? It's time to volunteer!

Read more on Isaiah's assignment from God in Isaiah 6:1-13.

Adapted from "Revolution Devotional" by Livingstone Corporation

Sex, drugs, rock 'n' roll..and...Religion

Sex, drugs and rock 'n' roll used to be the Big Three of rebellion. Some families are adding religion to that list.

An increasing number of teens and young adults who were raised in nonreligious or nominally religious families are getting swept up in religious fervor. This is creating a complicated and sometimes painful family dynamic.

Read the rest of the article here.

We're here for a good time...

..not a long time

Been thinking about Smyrna these days.

Tough times happen; suffering, poverty, persecution from the unsuspecting source of someone close to us. Yet, these things have a short lifespan.

Would our approach to life be different if we expected thorns instead of being surprised by them? Should life be all rose petals? Is that even realistic?

Still, the temporary setbacks cannot thwart the hope we've been promised for eternity.

In the background:

Every year, has it's share of tears
Every now and then it's gotta rain
We're here for a good time
Not a long time
So have a good time
The sun can't shine every day

Let's make the most of what we have!

Grace

"I picked up a man from the street, and he was eaten up alive from worms. Nobody could stand him, and he was smelling so badly. I went to him to clean him, and he asked, 'Why do you do this?' I said, 'Because I love you.'"
~ Mother Teresa

"Grace is the free, undeserved goodness and favor of God to mankind."
~ Matthew Henry

Grace makes beauty
Out of ugly things
Grace finds beauty
In everything
Grace finds goodness
In everything

From the Inside Out

Been thinking about the church in Ephesus & devotion/worship/first love.

This prayer is a step in the right direction back...

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

~Hillsong United

Truly Forgiven = Transformation

I was looking back in my journal to 1 year ago. I clipped a quote of his and here is a slice:

Conviction of sin, the marvel of forgiveness, and holiness are so interwoven that it is only the forgiven man who is the holy man, he proves he is forgiven by being the opposite to what he was, by God's grace. Repentance always brings a man to this point: I have sinned. The surest sign that God is at work is when a man says that and means it. Anything less than this is remorse for having made blunders, the reflex action of disgust at himself. ~Oswald Chambers

I'm reminded of when I was a kid. More often than not I was remorseful, even fearful, of being caught. Usually only sorry after the fact because I had been caught. That level of remorse never changed me. It made me more careful the next time not to get caught.

God grant us the gift of true repentance that leads to life change.

Move to Missional

I was listening to a McLaren talk the other day & he said something to the effect of:

Missionary = converting people to join our church

Missional = converting our church to bring God's blessing to the community

Gotta love McLaren!

Gone should be the days of the church inside a building, tons of programs and scratching heads wondering why people are disinterested in coming inside.

I agree, in need of conversion is the church itself!

God's blessing is for the world, let's go outside and share it!

OverExposure

In photography, overexposure is a term used to describe the condition of too much lighting displayed while a photograph is being taken. Conversely, underexposure refers to the lack of lighting during photograph taking.

Been thinking about proximity to the light that is Jesus Christ.

Moses spent time with God on Mt. Sinai and his countenance displayed that "overexposure". (see Exodus 34:29-35)

Time spent in the presence of Jesus, the light, illuminates one's life.

The question is of under or over exposure?

An Empty Trap

Our spiritual life is not one that can be measured, calculated or predicted. The only certainty we have is our uncertainty. But that is not a bad thing. It is indeed quite exciting, spontaneous and full of expectation! So we should not be floundering around, waiting, looking even longing for a certain (steady & predictable) route.

To be certain of God means we are uncertain in oursleves. We are uncertain what each day will bring, but certain in God. We are uncertain of what will happen to us, but certain in God. We are uncertain of where we are going and where life will take us, but we are certain in God.

We are not uncertain of God, just uncertain of what he will do next.

Unfortunately, many 'churched' people-- dare I say 'Christians', lead empty, lifeless and unexciting lives. Why? Because often as churched people, we have become advocates of our creed. Our doctrines, our traditions, and our rules. We are not certain in God, we are only certain in our belief about him.

It is time to put down the stale meaningless life and begin to enjoy the freshness of the abundant life.

Revolutionary Parenting

In Revolutionary Parenting, Barna notes that there are three dominant approaches to parenting currently operative in the United States.

Parenting by default is what Barna termed "the path of least resistance." In this approach, parents do whatever comes naturally to the parent, as influenced by cultural norms and traditions. The objective is to keep everyone - parent, child, and others - as happy as possible, without having the process of parenting dominate other important or prioritized aspects of the parent’s life.

Trial-and-error parenting is a common alternative. This approach is based on the notion that every parent is an amateur at raising children, there are no absolute guidelines to follow, and that the best that parents can do is to experiment, observe outcomes, and improve based upon their successes and failures in child rearing. In this incremental approach, the goals of parenting are to continually improve and to perform better than most other parents.

Barna found that revolutionary parenting was the least common approach. Such nurturing requires the parent to take God’s words on life and family at face value, and to apply those words faithfully and consistently.

Perhaps the most startling difference in these approaches has to do with the desired outcomes. "Parenting by default and trial-and-error parenting are both approaches that enable parents to raise their children without the effort of defining their life," Barna explained. "Revolutionary parenting, which is based on one’s faith in God, makes parenting a life priority. Those who engage in revolutionary parenting define success as intentionally facilitating faith-based transformation in the lives of their children, rather than simply accepting the aging and survival of the child as a satisfactory result."

For the complete article go here.

Least & Lowest

One Ring to Rule them All

Focusing on Jesus' crown of thorns:

“What did the great Romancer do when he wanted to present us with a token of his love and commitment? He made a sacrifice beyond comprehension. A sacrifice so great, so grand, so unfathomable, so ‘other than’ anything you and I could possibly imagine that it left an indelible mark in eternity. He gave us a ring of thorns, a crown of ultimate pain and surrender, a token of unarguable love. He presented us with a symbol bathed in blood and born in sacrifice.”

~Furious Pursuit p. 154

On Bended Knee

LISTENING

John 13:1-5, 23 It was just before the Passover Feast. Jesus knew that the time had come for him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved his own who were in the world, he now showed them the full extent of his love. The evening meal was being served, and the devil had already prompted Judas Iscariot, son of Simon, to betray Jesus. Jesus knew that the Father had put all things under his power, and that he had come from God and was returning to God; so he got up from the meal, took off his outer clothing, and wrapped a towel around his waist. After that, he poured water into a basin and began to wash his disciples' feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around him.... One of them, the disciple whom Jesus loved, was reclining next to him.

MEDITATION

Imagine you're present at the Last Supper. The meal is over, and Jesus leans back to recline near the table, as was the custom of that time. He's among his disciples, people with whom he's shared three powerful, challenging years. They've all been through much together. Yet Jesus knows much is still yet to come. Imagine what the scene must have looked like.

Now imagine Jesus asks you to join him. What are you feeling as he calls you to him? Are you thrilled? Nervous? Fearful? Contented? Do you feel safe or vulnerable--or perhaps a combination of both? Pay attention to your response and your emotions. Take a moment to figure them out. Then imagine Jesus invites you to lay your head on his chest. He's inviting you to listen to the very heartbeat of God. What's your response? As you listen, what do you hear?[Spend about 15-20 minutes in silence.]

**Taken from "Enjoy the Silence" by Maggie and Duffy Robbins, copyright 2005, Youth Specialties/Zondervan. Used by permission. Order the book here: http://www.youthspecialties.com/product/259916

The Shot Heard 'round the Stadium!

We were in Edmonton last weekend for Joel's final hockey tournament of the season.

On Friday morning, Joel's team, Shaw Meadows Ironheads, won their first game 3-1 against an equally matched team from Edmonton.

On Saturday morning, the Ironheads won their second game 3-1 against another equally matched team from Edmonton. In fact, this one went down to the wire with the score being 2-1 Ironheads with 2 minutes left. The other team pulled their goalie and we got an empty netter. (We would meet this team in the final!)

Following this game was a skills competition and then the kids went to West Edmonton Mall for the afternoon.

In the evening, the Ironheads played another Calgary team. There wasn't a heck of a lot of gas left in the tank. Despite this team not having won a game to that point and we not having lost a game to that point - we lost 4-2. Good for those guys. As a parent it stinks to watch your kids work so hard yet come out on the winless end of a tournament - NOT THAT I CAN RELATE, BOOYA!!

Sunday morning, the Ironheads played the Edmonton team from Saturday morning. Both teams had 2 wins & 1 lose. It was a well fought game. Tied at 1 all for the first 2 1/2 periods when the other team scored with 4 minutes left in the third period. With 29 seconds left in the third one of our guys (an unlikely hero who stayed up until 1:30 a.m. that morning) took a one time slap shot from 6 feet out and beat their goalie tying the game. No overtime. Straight to a 4 man shoot out.

First shooters for each team didn't score.
Second shooters for each team scored 1-1.
Third shooters for each team scored 2-2.
Fourth shooters for each team didn't score....
We go through 4 more shooters from each team without scoring.
Shooter #9 from Edmonton - saved by our goalie.

I look at the bench and see Joel with his stick up motioning to the coach to put him in. The coach does!

Shooter #9 from our team is Joel. I yell out "shoot it hard Joel!" He gets the whistle and makes his way down the ice toward the goalie. Back and forth, back and forth he stick handles the puck until reaching the hash marks. He keeps skating as he spots the opening between the goalies legs. He shoots hard...the puck goes five hole & hits the back of the net! The ref points to the back of the net! Joel's arms and stick goes into the air as his teammates pour off the bench and mob him! His coach makes his way to the center of little bodies where he picks Joel up and carries him on his shoulders back to the gathering crowd around our other hero, our goalie!

What a great game! I'm biased but seriously one of the best games and best finishes I've witnessed in any hockey game, even professional.

Hip Hip Hooray Ironheads!

Sanders on Big Decisions & Guidance

• Be unconditionally willing to do it, whatever it is. It may be that your will needs to be redirected. Be willing to be made willing.
• Be obedient to any light the Lord has already given. If you are not obeying that, why expect more?
• Be patient. The road ahead may not be revealed all at once; it seldom is. But God will show you each step as you need to take it.
• Remember the intellectual component in this exercise. John Wesley maintained, “God generally guides me by presenting reasons to my mind for acting in a certain way”—not feelings to my heart.
• Gather all the information you can about the options that are open to you.
• Seek advice from your Christian parents, your pastor, or a trusted Christian counsellor. However, don’t allow them to make the decision for you. It is your life that is at stake, and you will have to live with the consequences of that decision.
• Ensure that the course you propose to pursue is biblically legitimate. Submit it to the test of Scripture.
• List the pros and cons of the course you propose, and as you weigh them, ask the Holy Spirit to sway your mind in the direction of His will, believing that HE does it in keeping with James 1:5.
• Don’t ask for extraordinary guidance, for that is the exception and not the rule, especially as you mature spiritually. Spectacular signs are given only by he sovereign choice of God. Faith is content with quiet guidance.
• Make the best decision you can in the light of the facts, believing God has answered your prayer for wisdom.
• Expect the witness of the Spirit in a deepening conviction that this is the will of God for you. Circumstances may confirm your guidance.
• Be prepared for Satan to challenge your decisions. He did that with the Master.
• Unless action is urgent, allow a little time to elapse, and if the conviction remains and the peace of God guards your heart, act with confidence.
• Don’t dig up in unbelief what you have sown in faith.

~J. Oswald Sanders "Every Life is a Plan of God"

Furious Pursuit II

I've been going through Tim King & Frank Martin's book Furious Pursuit. It is an unbelievable book.

Brian McLaren says this about the book, "If you're sick and tired of spiritual to-do lists, religious shoulds and oughts, and the self-hatred that comes from feeling unacceptable, you'll find in Furious Pursuit better news of a better story. Tim King and Frank Martin have given us powerful truth, well-told."

The Bible talks about personal transformation in the context of thought patterns & ruts (Romans 12:2). How many of us need a change of thinking as it relates to God? How many of us need to hear His story retold? I do & this book is doing it for me.

Here's a lengthy quote worth thinking on:

If you and I are hard-wired to be in relationship with God, created by Love and for Love, then doesn't that relationship need nurturing? If our identity is wrapped up in God, then how do we open ourselves to the identity that God wrote for us? How do we allow it to transform us?

This is not your ordinary shift in relational dynamics. It's an about-face, a 180-degree turn, a reversal of everything we've been taught about our responsibility toward God. His Story not only compels us to see God in a different light; it exhorts us to live in a different state of mind, to relate to God differently, love him differently, and allow him to love us differently.

And that demands a life dedicated to drawing near to God, but not in order to get him to draw near to us--he has already done that. And not in an effort to please him--he's already pleased with us. And definitely not as a means of activating his love toward us--he already loves us. We draw near to God in order to allow his love to transform us and compel us to cast our eyes higher. He wants to engage us in the divine Courtship that is already underway. (From Furious Pursuit, page 72)

Imagine living life confident that God is near you, God is pleased with you, and God loves you no matter what. How would that thinking change your living?

It's a rut worth getting stuck in!

Furious Pursuit

Whether or not we ever choose to accept it, God loves us wholl and unconditionally in spite of our penchant for sin and rebellion and in spite of our faithless tendencies. His love is unlike anything we could possibly fathom on our own.

The great Baptist minister Will Campbell summed it up succinctly: "We're all bastards, but God loves us anyway."

One of the hardest truths any of us will ever grasp is that God is completely enamored with us, absolutely smitten, in love with us unconditionally with all his heart and soul! He loves us regardless of anything we've done, thought, said, or felt. It is possible to convince ourselves that the God who knows our every flaw could love us still?

~Tim King

Prodigal's Brother

Why do I feel so bad, heavy hearted, sad inside?
Why at a time of celebration am I bitter - unable to join in?
Why do I feel neglected, unwanted, unloved, uncelebrated?

I'm supposed to open my arms too, without judging
I'm supposed to forgive, without entertaining thoughts of punishment or justice
I'm not sure I'm ready for this - it will take time
I'm not sure I'm big enough for this - it will take more love than I feel

"He was lost and has been found" I'm told
"Come celebrate and rejoice" I'm invited
"All that I have is yours" I'm promised
"He's your brother" I'm reminded.

~Adrian Riley

Prodigal Returns

It was while we were yet far off

Before we had hatched a plan

or mapped a route back to your heart.

Before we had sent a postcard

to warn you of our imminent return.

While we were yet far off

you could see our footprints

turning in the opposite direction.

You knew that our hearts were entirely captured

before ever we recognized

a chink in our self-centered armor.

While we were yet far off

You had sent out the invitation

and blown up the balloons.

The presents were wrapped

and the chairs pushed back

to make room for the dancing.

As we rounded the corner

we could dimly see you,

craning your neck and leaping for joy.

We thought then

that a reconciliation might be possible.

While we were yet far off

you popped the cork

and added the final touches

to the party tea.

~Tracy Wheeler

Tempted

The Temptation of Jesus

Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted there by the devil.

Lenten Meditations

Help us grow in our desire for you.
We are learning the intimate connection
between the "discipline" we choose these days,
and the growth of our desire.
If our desire for our Lord is weak,
if it has to compete with so many other desires that choke it out,
then we need to re-form our desiring.
We want to be disciples -
those who love Jesus, are with Jesus in our desires,
and choose to follow Jesus.
Amen.

More Meditations, Readings & Prayers here.

Begotten

O God, who for our redemption gave your only-begotten Son to the death of the cross, and by his glorious resurrection delivered us from the power of our enemy: Grant us so to die daily to sin, that we may evermore live with him in the joy of his resurrection; through Jesus Christ your Son our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen.

~The Book of Common Prayer

The Desert Files

I hope you find this Lenten excercise helpful.

Lent & YouTube

There is no sound on this video as it has been designed for silent meditation.

Lent & Presence

Today the heart of God is an open wound of love. He aches over our distance and preoccupation.... He weeps over our obsession with muchness and manyness. He longs for our presence. ~Richard Foster

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I went on a personal retreat this past week.

My intention was for 48 hours of silence, solitude & fasting. However, I considered not going at all as I battled the flu, but still I went. When I woke up on the first morning there was 4 inches of snow on the ground. I was a 20 minute walk down a hill, over a river and up another hill to my car with bad tires. I chose to split having been satisfied that I had met with God.

I'll spare you all the details (you can drop me a line if you want to hear more).

What did God say to me over that period of time?

There is a common theme running through my life right now: living my spiritual life from my heart.

Nouwen was my spiritual director for the day - these are the things God spoke to me through his words:

By being awake to God in us we can increasingly see God in the world around us.
Meditation is the discipline by which we let the word of God become a word for us and anchor itself in the center of our being, as well as the wellspring of our actions.
The more we let the events of Christ's life inform and form us, the more we will be able to connect our own daily stories with the great story of God's presence in our lives.

Again, I won't go into details just to say that I've been looking at life as a puzzle to be solved and getting frustrated in the meantime. I've neglected to see life as a quest with Jesus as my friend & guide.

Nouwen kicked me in the pants:

A spiritual life doesn't necessarily lead to tranquillity, to peace, or to a beautiful feeling about ourselves or about how nice it is to be together with others. The chipping-away process can hurt. It might mean being lonely in a place where you never wanted to go. It might lead you to a vocation you never sought. It might ask you to do uncomfortable things. Or it might ask you to obediently and routinely do comfortable things that are not very dramatic when you prefer adventure. The spiritual truth is that God is at work in each of us and in our communities and families. Often, the companionship of trusted friends allows us to see how God is at work. We can't always see God's activity by ourselves.

My goals have been out of whack.

"Jesus doesn't call you to be successful, but to be faithful." ~Mother Teresa

What I needed to hear most was:

I am God's beloved, with me He is well pleased.

Nouwen says:

God's words "You are my Beloved" reveal the most intimate truth about all human beings, whether they belong to any particular tradition or not. The ultimate spiritual temptation is to doubt this fundamental truth about ourselves and trust in alternative identities.

Self-rejection is the greatest enemy of the spiritual life because it contradicts the sacred voice that declares we are loved.

From the moment we claim the truth of being the Beloved, we are faced with the call to become who we are.

Becoming the Beloved means letting the truth of our Belovedness become enfleshed in everything we think, say or do.

It was a good 24 hours, one that will be repeated again!

Lent & Love

(God) will use you to accomplish great things on the condition that you believe much more in his love than in your own weakness. ~Mother Teresa

Lent - A journey to the Cross

Lent begins today, Ash Wednesday, & will continue until Good Friday.

Lent is a time set aside to reflect on Jesus' suffering and death. As we do so, it is an opportunity for us to take an inventory of our spiritual life & relationship with God as we meditate, confess & renew our lives in Him.

Each day you are invited back here for a guided meditation on this year's journey to the cross.

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Pilgrimage to Calvary

We keep our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne. ~Hebrews 12:2

A man standing on the deck of a ship suddenly heard a deafening rumble as a volcano on the shore burst into flame. The whole countryside was lit up, and then the flame died. In those moments, he said, was revealed the fire that is ever burning in the heart of that mountain.

As we contemplate the Passion of our Lord, His suffering on Calvary, we have a glimpse of the love that is forever in the heart of God for each of us. Calvary is the supreme articulation of God's love for the world.

Taken from 40 Days with the Savior

I’m forgiven

because You were forsaken,

I’m accepted,

You were condemned.

I'm alive and well,

Your sprit is within me,

Because You died and rose again.

Amazing love,

How can it be?

That You, my King would die for me?

Amazing love,

I know it’s true.

It’s my joy to honour You,

In all I do, I honour You.

Who I Am In Christ

I am accepted...

John 1:12
I am God's child.
John 15:15
As a disciple, I am a friend of Jesus Christ.
Romans 5:1
I have been justified.
1 Corinthians 6:17
I am united with the Lord, and I am one with Him in spirit.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20
I have been bought with a price and I belong to God.
1 Corinthians 12:27
I am a member of Christ's body.
Ephesians 1:3-8
I have been chosen by God and adopted as His child.
Colossians 1:13-14
I have been redeemed and forgiven of all my sins.
Colossians 2:9-10
I am complete in Christ.
Hebrews 4:14-16
I have direct access to the throne of grace through Jesus Christ.

I am secure...

Romans 8:1-2
I am free from condemnation.
Romans 8:28
I am assured that God works for my good in all circumstances.
Romans 8:31-39
I am free from any condemnation brought against me and I cannot be separated from the love of God.
2 Corinthians 1:21-22
I have been established, anointed and sealed by God.
Colossians 3:1-4
I am hidden with Christ in God.
Philippians 1:6
I am confident that God will complete the good work He started in me.
Philippians 3:20
I am a citizen of heaven.
2 Timothy 1:7
I have not been given a spirit of fear but of power, love and a sound mind.
1 John 5:18
I am born of God and the evil one cannot touch me.

I am significant...

John 15:5
I am a branch of Jesus Christ, the true vine, and a channel of His life.
John 15:16
I have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit.
1 Corinthians 3:16
I am God's temple.
2 Corinthians 5:17-21
I am a minister of reconciliation for God.
Ephesians 2:6
I am seated with Jesus Christ in the heavenly realm.
Ephesians 2:10
I am God's workmanship.
Ephesians 3:12
I may approach God with freedom and confidence.
Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me.

Freedom in Christ Ministries